Alyssa is my oldest daughter. She is 21 years old and has decided to serve a mission for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. She received her call back in May. She has been called to the England Manchester Mission. She leaves on October 26, 2011 and will return 18 months later. I am SO excited for her and have always felt in my heart that she would serve a mission-ever since she was little my heart knew this day would come. I am excited but also so nervous. I want her safe and I want her happy. I know that she will have trials while on her mission and I know she will experience every emotion under the sun. This makes me nervous-I don't want her to hurt without me there to make it better. But I know this can't be and I know she is strong enough to weather this journey without me. She has God by her side and this is all she needs.
When I am nervous, scared or feeling out of control I respond in very predictable ways. I quit eating, start crafting or I go shopping or all the above. Thus the posts that precede this one manifest what I have done as of late to cope with the angst I have felt as I weather this tumultuously fantastic storm!
